the most beautiful thing: loyalty two
I have often been criticized for what boils down to a loyalty to the whole more than my loyalty to the parts. This may be a self-agrandizing way of saying that I have often put the outcome of projects, the perfection of structure, the good of “all” before the feelings, the joy and the comfort of the people involved. It isn’t that I don’t care about people. In fact, it is just the opposite.
I have such an idealist view of the possibilities of peace and joy that arise from all the pieces in their place that I often forget that 1. the pieces will actually never be in “their” place, or at least not for more than the one moment it may matter before other needs arise and 2. that the process and experience on the way to that expected moment are when life really happens.
So, how about this: How about I take this naturally arising and family encouraged sense of duty and apply it doubly in half. How about if the two goals of ideal systematic aquarian bliss and the confidence building of all who the process touches were the focus of my loyalty – that I could have a hand in the smiles of others while getting important things done.
Indeed, I was raised with a modern-day Machiavellian work ethic, but today I continue and more deeply realized that the means are an end in and of themselves. And the loyalty two-fold is a most beautiful thing, if only a goal… but of course, the goal also being the path, I suppose it is a most beautiful thing in me, in my mind, in my heart and intention right now.
At the Moulin Rouge: Two Women Waltzing
1892; Oil on cardboard, 93 x 80 cm; Narodni Galerie, Prague